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The Sounds of Love & Loss
Songs that got me through my grief.
Lucy Socha created a challenge to list one’s five top (?) songs of lost love. Immediately my ‘sad’ playlist came to mind.
When my cowboy died, twenty years ago, I found a coping mechanism that worked for me.
As I navigated through the fog of each day, I would feel the emotions building to a point where I knew they would roil up from the depths and spill out through my eyes, and even worse, potentially through an angry outburst at someone undeserving of such treatment.
My solution was to put on the saddest, most gut-wrenching music triggering a complete and utter breakdown. The emotional vomiting brought everything down to baseline and I could trust myself to get through the next day.
That first year is a blur, but I think the first song that gave a voice to what I felt was To Miss Someone by The Chenille Sisters, sent to me by my sister.
Missing the cowboy every single moment of every single day was perfectly described by this line: “It holds me close and won’t let go it’s like some shadow that knows everything I know. There is no way to run away from what you miss, and so I turn and let it come and always know this, I miss someone.”
