The 20th anniversary of my husband's death is coming up in a few months. As time goes by, I'm sure I sound a bit callous. It's just that sometimes we don't really want to feel the feels associated with it. You said it all when you said, "it's quite hazy now."

I cannot remember much of the first year after Jim died. Quite hazy is an apt description.

Sorry for your loss, and glad to see you're moving forward.

Thanks for the laugh ... the visual of what would happen when jet washing something was great!